It all started with a mushroom trip...
....sorry, it actually all started with growing up in churches and identifying as an active Christian until 2007.
After a (very) brief stint as an Atheist, I felt that the concept was a little too cold and I wanted to explore Spirituality outside of Christianity. Thus began my fascination (re: obsession) with The Hero's Journey as a way to explore Spiritual concepts without attachment to religion or a deity.
So, I explored Spirituality via a very physical, perhaps even Humanist, mindset. In my thinking (still) there doesn't have to be gods/goddesses/a spirit realm/non-corporeal existence/etc.. Spirituality, in an of itself, transcends all of our wants and/or beliefs about "spiritual" things.
And then the mushroom trip happened.
I actually took the mushrooms (Oct. 2019) to prove to my son that they don't do anything...
...and I was wrong. "Things" definitely "happened". I absolutely had "experiences" that defy physicality and logic. I definitely "saw" and "felt" things that are not among the standard human experience.
And the final experience (4 or 5 hours physically, by 10 to 12 hours in my alternate perception), was meeting Goddess.
She appeared to me in many forms (and I also became Her at times - and ultimately am Her still), but the primary one that I aligned with was Her as a giant, black Naga or Nagina.
That form of the Dark Goddess sits with me still as being Her primary essence. I see her in many forms, all forms, but I always come back to that terrifyingly beautiful, powerful, all-consuming Naga.
Is She One, is She Many, is She All? Yes.
In Christian terminology, She is the Holy Spirit.
Do I worship Her? Certainly not in the typical definition of "worship". I converse with Her. She is with me always. We laugh, we joke, we make fun of one another. She is the One who has coerced me down the Path I walked until I ran straight into Her.
Is She the only "God"? I see Her as a manifestation of the All, of the Oneness (since Oneness cannot be described), and I choose to align with this "Feminine" aspect of the All. I cannot call Her "God" since my brain is conditioned (basically from birth) to consider "God" as "Father God", and "Goddess" also feels like an extended method of rebelling against that conditioning.
Probably more to come here eventually...
Goddess Blessings